Only laughing on the outside

I have stories cut in my flesh
I can't ignore them anymore
I reach for what's already lost
and i can feel it slip away
I pray for the streetlights to go out
because i still can't fall asleep
My mind still follows lost words
And thinking of you still hurts

They say that time heals wounds
But some wounds last forever
I am no longer fine
And i can't keep up the illusion
I am standing in my room
Push my head against the door
And i really hoped, you realized

I'm only laughing on the outside

And now I see
       for the first time
Fooling people isn't that hard
       i have a smile cut in my face
Because love has led me astray

And as my arms go numb
My hands are shaking
I have a sad song in my blood
It is sounding from the floor
And it feels like a broken record
I know i had this all before

So sieht's aus

Tja ich blogge wieder. was hat das nur zu bedeuten? Ja es geht mir natürlich wieder mal nicht gut.. hat ja auch lang genug gedauert? aber nach eineinhalb jahren wirds doch mal wieder zeit oder? tolle wurst!

Erinnerungen

Versprich mir nichts, was du nicht halten kannst